I can't stop!!

I think I have to start all my posts here with a "long time no see!", because god, I can't be continuous at all here, so when I say I'll be more frequent, I dissappear for months oTL.
A reason for not posting anything is that my life didn't change much, or that's how I feel when I'm living it, so there aren't many times that the thought of "oh, I should write about this" comes to my mind at all, but now that I think about it, a lot of things happened.
I've been on holidays for two weeks. My fiancé took a plane for a few days to visit his family, so I passed a few days alone at home. Normally he is the one that cooks, so I decided to try to cook some dishes to try to survive with something more than cookies and sandwiches or rice (as you can imagine, I'm not exactly a great chef). We had SUPER WARM days, like 34ºC with tons of humidity, so I went through internet to look for healthy and nice recipes for summer days. I ended up on tiktok and now my whole timeline is just healthy recipes. Just for that I ended up doing some exercise (WHAAAT) in the mornings. I used to wake up around 7 a.m. to have a fast breakfast (banana with strawberries) and then go out for a walk for two hours. I'm not used at all to go out except if it's something super necessary like going to work or to buy groceries, but the feeling of just chilling, listening to music with almost no one around was very calming and I ended up enjoying it. Feeling that I had all the time in the world I started making a routine: less league of legends, more touching grass. Literally. And surprisingly I keep doing it. I'm not exactly a "fit" girl when it comes to living as a healthy person, like I used to not care about the food I ate, not moving at all in my resting days (and the ones I had to work I could go walking, but not really paying attention to exercise) and I didn't notice how that was affecting to my health. My sleep schedule was A MESS. Really terrible, maybe I would sleep for two or three hours and then wake up with my eyes completely wide open and I couldn't sleep again until three hours passed (so when I was close to 7 a.m. I would feel sleepy again). That's why my skin was bad, my hair was bad and my mood was terrible. I wouldn't scream to anyone, but I felt myself quite sad and depressed most of the time. I'm sure it's not just because of the exercise, but I also needed a rest from work. I don't want to post publicly anything related to it, but there are lots of things that need to change and not thinking about it for two weeks has been really a big relief.
I also had this conversation about family issues that needed to be said (I don't feel comfortable at all being specific about it because who knows who will read this, but let's just say I have a very complicated and pretty toxic background with part of my family), and thankfully everything went fine. The situation is still similar but I feel different about it after saying what I thought out loud.
I really needed it.
I'm not a person that explodes easily, I consider myself a pretty chill person that avoids conflict almost at all costs. That's something good and bad at the same time. You always end up caring even when you say you don't, and maybe it's something that starts as something small but then it gets bigger and bigger inside you, so I'm glad I took it off me. It's still there but it doesn't feel as big now, so it's ok for the present.
So for now I'm feeling lighter and happier in many ways.
Btw, I said earlier that there aren't many days that I think to write about, but there was actually one during the holidays that has been completely perfect. My fiancé and I took the train to another city (it's pretty close, around 30 minutes away) a bit early in the morning (maybe 9 am?). We went for a "date day" and our first stop was the aquarium. GOD EVERYTHING WAS SO AMAZING. We saw all kinds of fishes, some sharks, jellyfishes, spiders, turtles... There was a moment that I couldn't stop crying of happiness because everything was just so beautiful, calming and perfect. I wish I could stop the time and live that moment and that feeling for the eternity. I always felt super interested about underwater life, it's like a whole different world in our planet. The fact that there is still so much to learn about it and so much to explore, it really makes me want to wear a swimsuit and forget about anything non-underwater related. If you have that same feeling you should play Subnautica btw. 10000/10 game.
So yeah, we visited the aquarium and then we went for a walk to check some bookstores and to think nothing but to enjoy the day. We stopped by to get lunch in a taco restaurant and the food was delicious. I even drank my first tequila shot (it was terrible, but I had lots of fun with that experience) ((I can't drink at all btw)). Then we checked other bookstores and I bought a book about greek mythology (I love mythology aswell!!! MY PASSIONS, EVERYTHING IN THE SAME DAY), called 'Mythos' by Stephen Fry. It's written in a kinda novelistic style, very different of what I'm used to see in that kind of books! That got my attention. So after that we went back to the train station, a bit tired because the heat (and our full stomachs), to get back home. My fiancé slept a little bit while I read the new book in our way back. For a moment I looked at our reflection in the window and took a "mental photo" of that situation. I felt really happy. I wish I could stop the time in that moment too.
After arriving at our local train station I talked about the NEED I had to eat something sweet (you know when you crave for a particular texture? I really craved for a donut or something like "sponge cake"), so we walked kinda far from home to get a SUPER SMALL piece of donut. Cheap but delicious. Worth it.
When we arrived home we were super tired, we burned a bit our skin because of the sun, but god we were feeling super happy. THE POWER OF THE HOLIDAYS. I wish they last forever.
Sadly they doesn't, but I'm trying to keep a little bit of that routine in my daily life: going out for a walk/running for one hour, eating healthier, spending more time in stuff that I enjoy (instead of playing league lmao) and for now I'm fine. It's not like during holidays, but now we are planning what to do in our next free week.
There is so much to enjoy!