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New things coming

15/01/2026

So after all the Christmas celebrations finally the new year started. Here where I live the Christmas period ends the 7th of January. I couldn't wait for this period to finish because there are too many people around.
My IRL job is a Customer-facing one, so it's really tiring to deal with lots of people in a few hours, especially in these times since people are really "special", very rude and they will talk to you treating you as something inferior to them, but you can only keep smiling instead of saying what you really think.
It's really exhausting sobs.
But I was mentally prepared for this. I'm in my holidays period for a week and I feel I'm recovering for that hahaha. It's really cold outside so I can wear layers of clothes (i love it) and feel relaxed at home. No rush, no more annoying people. Just a nice routine of waking up early, having a nice breakfast, drawing, looking for ideas, maybe go out to have a cool lunch, go for a walk, come back home, keep drawing and then playing some games and watching TV shows or movies while having dinner before going to bed.
I've never been an extroverted person and I prefer to stay at home most of the time, but what I mostly treasure is feeling that I have time to do the things I like without any rush. It's really enjoyable to finally have time to do what you really like to do without thinking in something else like "oh I have to check the hour to get to work in time" or stuff like that.
God I'd wish I could be in holidays forever.
So these days I'm trying to do all the stuff I like to do, mostly drawing and looking for ideas. I'm drawing new stuff basically everyday, preparing pages for the zine/magazine I talked about before. I also found some websites that are like a compilation of retro products (just what I was looking for!) and they are so inspiring! I can't wait to see how it turns out!
I'm uploading some sketches in a private account I have on twitter and a friend of mine told me about if I would run an art mail club they would subscribe many times (if you are reading this ily) and I got super excited about it, so I'm also working on it. Looking for information, checking other artists to see how they are doing it and stuff like that is really fun. It's like doing research but for something you really love so I think I could even skip eating just to keep searching! (i don't forget to eat dw) lol. But yeah I'm feeling very happy and motivated about this. It's really fun to finally be able to do things that I enjoy. The process is super cool and I'm sure the results will be worth the effort!

P.D: God, I love Internet

Getting some hopes

04/01/2026

Ok, new year, new tries.
I want to be positive about this year, try lots of new things, which involve this website and the use I want to give for it. For now I haven't been quite as much online as i used to since I prioritize videogames over art and basically over everything as a way distract myself from work and personal stuff that shouln't really have so much attention in my head nor my life.
Lately I've been trying to work more on the stuff that I really enjoy, (basically arts) and to do that I ended up cutting all my connection to League of Legends, doomscrolling on youtube and other distractions. I don't want to sound like "hey this changed my life, btw I'm sponsored" at all, but using a program called "Cold Turkey" helped me a lot. It basically blocks the distractions you want to select for a period that you can choose. Since I started using it, I can focus on the stuff I want and I don't feel like I wasted my day anymore, which helps me a lot to get up the next day and do the same.
I really recommend it.
Btw I started working on a project that it's totally my niche, and it's drawing retrofuturistic objects, like headphones, mobilephones, radios or loudspeakers; as ads. You know, with cute girls showing them or posing with them. There are some incredible designs that I LOVE so much. I'm trying to get as much info about them as I can, so if there is any object that looks futuristic, please tell me! I'd love to make something like a magazine with all of it. In my head it looks so cool... Like, can you imagine a zine that looks like a magazine with retro stuff and cute drawings? I'll have to rename lots of brands, but that will be fun too hahaha.
Would it be better if I show some sketches while I work or just post everything when I finish?
Maybe I can make a calendar page to see my process and my progress, so I can see how much I'm working and finally feel proud about what I do.

Idk, I have big hopes for this year. I'm crossing my fingers.
Will this year be MY year?
For now I'm trying to draw something everyday, and when I don't it's because I've been working on the website, which is also cool because I feel it's growing. It really motivates me to do stuff, for example designing wallpapers or small decorations for it. I'm using a lot of deco that I find online, but I want to replace it for my own gifs and small pngs. Something "completely mine".

Btw this has nothing to do with what I said today, but GOD how good it feels to get out of twitter. With their last update I ended up losing any posible interest in that site. I didn't even feel angry or sad (after all, I did lots of contacts and worked very hard in trying to have a public), just tired of it.
The only thing I'd wish is that my friends and the people I met there would create a website here too, but even when I insist I don't think that's gonna happen (at least for now) and that's what actually makes me a bit sad, I'd love to have people I know here.
But let's see how everything goes. I really enjoy looking for cool websites to try to convince them hahaha, who knows!!

Posting online is a pain

13/05/2025

Posting online is a pain. Everytime I come up with a new idea for an illustration I think it's gonna look good and probably people will like it. I know I shouldn't think too much about it, but at the same time if I could become a full time artist it would be a dream coming true, but everytime I post something feels like a slap on my face. Reality slapping. Then I think about the time I spend drawing (waking up soon, using almost all my free time to draw), just for nothing. I feel I improve my skills but at the same time I think "why do i keep doing this?". It's always the same.
And now with the "AI art", people who I used to collab with now became "AI bros" and it feels so humilliating. Like, why would someone claim to support artists but then just use AI? In the end I guess they just want money and fast results. It's really discouraging.

Con preparations

08/05/2025

This past week has been incredibly busy. Work days leave me exhausted. I planned to spend my nights journaling to keep a sort of "track" of my days, but I get home so tired that all I end up doing is falling asleep on the couch. Last Monday, there was a nationwide blackout. In fact, neighboring countries also experienced a blackout. Nothing that required electricity was working, so driving was difficult because the traffic lights weren't working. People acted like we were back in the pandemic era of mass shopping. In my case, I went to work and did my workday until the generators at the store where I work went out. When I got home, there were tons of people on the streets chatting or playing with their kids, lol. It felt like we were back to 2000s. I found it funny, because the next day we had good weather again, but since the light was back on, the streets emptied out again. It's not something that bothers me, nor do I want to criticize it, but it was something that caught my attention.

These days I've been drawing. I'm planning to do a series of illustrations (even a compilation book if I have time) related to retro stuff and things I like, like android girls and things like that. And there's a convention I usually go to every year coming up soon! It's harder to go to conventions outside my city (having my own booth at them) because everything is more expensive, so I always try to take advantage and go to the one in my city. I signed up two days ago, but I have to wait about 20 days/a month to find out if I've been accepted or not. The truth is, I'd love to go. I feel like I'm really motivated to go to those kinds of events, since I want to have lots of new products for each year. That way, I see photos from past events and can see if I've improved or not. It's a lot of fun. I always try to go with my friend Faye, who is an incredibly talented artist and a very nice friend. We always end up chatting, sharing food and laughing a lot. She helps me to have fun in that event. I don't mean I don't have fun at the event, but I consider myself a very introverted person, so being in a space with so many people can sometimes be mentally draining, even when the people are incredibly nice. The atmosphere at that event is usually really good, and the people who attend are usually lovely, but when I finally arrive home, I feel like I don't want to talk to anyone for days. I need to recharge my social batteries :')
I'd wish I could show you what is like to be behind the booth. Food and mess everywhere lol.

So I'll be working on new illustrations and merch from now on. Especially during the next two weeks, since I'll be on vacation during those days. I'll also try to dedicate some time to recording videos to upload to YouTube. I really enjoy watching videos of people drawing and living their lives peacefully, so I'd like to try doing the same (I'll have to clean my house first, haha).
I also want to go for walks and take photos so I can use them as material for frutiger aero pics hehehe. I'm sure it will be fun ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ/p>

Got a new printer!

26/04/2025

Yesterday I bought a new printer. I already have one, a canon PIXMA TS5352 (pink hehe) that is SO CUTE and cheap. I bought it when I moved to my place, back in the 2020 (pandemic times). The problem I have with that one is that it consumes TONS of ink when I print illustrations and I spend so much money on catridges that it hurts :( so I bought this new printer. It's an Epson Ecotank 3850. I still have to play with the colors, but I already tried printing with that one and the ink comes out SO GOOD. I can check the quantity left and spent by just looking at the printer. The quality of the prints is super good and it barely spends ink, so I'm very happy with my new purchase. Now I'll be able to print more from home, so it's the perfect excuse to draw more ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ I want to work a lot on this so maybe in some years I can dedicate my life to being an artist. It would be a dream coming true lol.

That's why I want to give a chance to an online store. My city (and my country in general) doesn't really approve anime/manga/illustration. Of course some people enjoy it (now it's easier to see anime stuff everywhere), but I'm used to people frowning when they see young people or adults enjoying that kind of stuff. It's pretty sad.

There is still a "big" convention near my city that happens every year. Since 2017? I've been attending to this convention with my own booth and everytime that happens I feel blessed by people. I enjoy that a lot since I don't spend too much money on it (I live near the convention) so I don't worry about the money too much. Of course I want to earn money there, but I really enjoy when people come to my booth with smile. Some of them are like "woaaaaaaa" and God I want to hug them all lol. I want to attend other cities too, but it feels different because I have to spend a big amount of money between the hotel and the bus or train, so I end up thinking more about how much I should earn (っ◞‸◟ c). That's why, for now, I'll work hard on my online store. I promise I'll do my best! ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ )